It's been a week since my best friend passed and it was full of ups and downs. I kept myself busy with work and friends because every time I came home it was empty; the saddest feeling I've ever experienced.
I said no to a few things lately. Dating, for one. I am dealing with grief and can't focus on really giving someone new the attention they would like. I'd rather focus on me becoming whole again so when I can enter the scene I am who I know I am. I bet that's difficult for some to understand but it is what it is. I'd rather be honest about where I'm at than fake it.
Extra jobs. No, I don't want to sell nutritional/skin supplements, or ItWorks wraps. Honestly, I'm annoyed by all of the messages asking me about these things. Eat healthfully and exercise and don't ask me to join your MLM business. I like crafts; I'd rather create things in my spare time.
Dick pics. Yeah, I got one of these by a random person on Facebook...I didn't know those were actual, real things people sent to others they've never talked to before. Disgusting. No one wants to see that.
But I've said yes to getting more involved in my church, my growth group, and loving those around me.
2017 just continues to be weird...but I'm gonna go with it.
But in other happy news - today I was picked by a new baby. His name was Enzo at the shelter and I wanted to change it to Pickles...but then as he began to settle into his new home with me tonight, the name "Adam" came to mind. It fits!
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| Little Adam on our way home! |
There was and will be only one FeeBee. But there's also now Adam. A new dog that I can give a great, loving home to because FeeBee taught me how. I think she'd want that, instead of the really sad, grief-stricken mom I've been all week long.
So here's to new adventures ~ a brand new year ~ a new season of my life.
