 |
| Hot coffee - snowy morning |
If you read my last blog post, you can imagine that my week wasn't the easiest one. As the week wore on, it improved drastically. I am so grateful for that! So, on this snowy Monday morning I'm just enjoying the peaceful, loving feeling that is around our home.
I'm one of the 5 New Yorkers who enjoy the snow. I didn't always; I had a goal for myself when I was younger to be living in Aruba by age 25. When that didn't happen, it was Florida by 30. Basically - wherever it wasn't ever cold was where I wanted to be. But there's a sense of calm in the cold weather. A feeling of it's okay to sit back, sip on something warm, and just be present in the moment.
I love these moments. It's the perfect time to enjoy the slowness of this snowy, sleepy morning, savor my cup of coffee, and just think about what I want out of my life. What I want for my future.
Keeping a schedule packed to the gills doesn't necessarily allow me to achieve what I'm looking to do. Sometimes I feel like I'm spinning in circles and have to put my hand down on something solid to steady me again. I think that's just how most of us live nowadays; it's become acceptable to be accountable for every second of our days.
I would like a life with no debt, more freedom to travel, more room for creativity. But that's not specific enough; in order to create what I dream of, I have to steep in the details of it.
I don't know if I can even get specific enough yet for this post, but I'm going to try. Even if it ends up being a running list that can be connected together at a later date.
I'm going to close my eyes...and here...we...go!
- I see woods around me; more than what I have currently around my home. I see snow; I feel the warmth of a wood stove; I smell the smoke and ash.
- I feel the closeness of a cabin; it's cozy. It's simple. It's uncluttered.
- Of course, dogs. My home wouldn't be complete with out our 4-legged babies.
- Quiet, except for the faint noise of music.
- I create. With my hands ~ I create things for people. I educate, I guide, I encourage, I coach.
- My husband - the amazing carpenter he is - has a wood shop that he's in, creating. Fixing. Re-purposing. Giving new life to something. He's happy, fulfilled, content.
- We aren't rushed. There is no where either of us have to be at any given point of time. We can simply be and accomplish what we can in our own time.
That's all I have so far. Looking at my list, it's clear to me that I envision a life that's a bit more simple than the one we're living now. That's what I truly want ~ and that's what I am going to create.
You may be asking yourself what is so complicated about right now. "Right now" isn't bad - but I feel sometimes bogged down by schedules and to-do lists that the projects that I have waiting for me to work on that would really make my heart sing end up on a waiting list. Perhaps you can relate to this, but I can't help this nagging feeling in my gut that while that may be the way others accept their lives to be, it isn't what I want to accept.
I am almost finished reading this amazing book called "YOU are a BADASS - How to Stop Doubting Your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome Life" (by Jen Sincero) and it's been truly inspiring. Whenever I've expressed over the years to say, work part time and live full time, I've been laughed at by my friends and family. But what's wrong with having a goal? Jen Sincero writes that if you want a certain lifestyle, you have to begin living like you already live that lifestyle. And so it shall be.
